Thanksgiving weekend was great but I didn't exercise. I have my reasons. :) Tomorrow morning is my Lasik consultation and so I'm not going to exercise in the morning. It's interesting to me the different setbacks we encounter on our roads to success. I'm not just talking about weight management but career and personal goals too. Sometimes the smallest thing can change our own history for better OR worst. The people around us have such a huge impact on us, especially our parents. Even when we think that we are all grown up and don't need or want their approval something happens to make us realize that we do. Mine happened today on my way to work.
I called one of my parents (who will remain anonymous) to find out about some medical history I need for tomorrow. We spoke briefly about it then this parent proceeded to add unwanted input. "Cindy, the one you need to worry about the most is your heart because you so large." Thanks Captain Obvious. Way to throw cold water on my enthusiasm. That one comment ruined my day. It was like all the other good things I have going for me don't even matter, it's this one area that I struggle with just keeps getting thrown in my face. I realized today that no matter how hard I try I will never be quite good enough and this parent doesn't even realize it. That's the saddest part, it's one thing to be cruel and realize it but it's a completely different ballgame when that person has no clue how hurtful they are.
Luckily for me I have an amazing husband, three other very supportive parents, amazing friends and extended family. If I didn't have this support group my goals would seem dull and lifeless. Fortunately they help me maintain my focus and remind me that I'm a pretty neat person. I realize that I have things that are hard for me to accomplish but eventually I'll get there. Life is hard, I get that. I accept that reality. I just wish that weren't my reality. That's all.
So as Clint would say, "Tomorrow Begins Today" and tomorrow is a new beginning. Here is one more step on my road to success...
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Monday, December 1, 2008
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Tomorrow Begins Today
On Wednesday these are the words that my coach (aka Clint) woke me up with. Since that day I have made sure to walk 1.5 miles Wed-Fri. Gweny and I get bundled up and head out the door. It's nice to be outside when it's not to hot. It's also nice knowing that I'm taking a step in the right direction.
Today I asked Clint what was on the agenda for our Saturday together and he said that he thought we could go for a family bike ride. I agreed and after some preparation we set out with me leading the way. Some of you may not know my intense fear of falling but it paralyzes me to the point of anxiety attacks and stifling activity. We rode from our house to the River Jordan Trail and then up to Main Street in Lehi. Doesn't sound to bad right? Well I freaked out a few times and had to self-talk myself into avoiding a fall (or four). Clint also had to encourage me to go on several times. Two hours later when we got home I thought I was going to die. I started to cry hysterically in our driveway from pain and disbelief...not only had I done it but I didn't fall. It was an amazing feeling. The rest of the day my butt, thighs and knees have been killing me and apparently for good reason. Clint just looked up the mileage and what we thought would be a 5-mile ride total turned into 10.3 miles. I just looked at him in utter disbelief and then cried a little. I can't believe it. I just rode my bike 10.3 miles and lived. :) I am still dumbfounded by this and could ramble about it but won't.
All I am going to say is this. Most of the time when we set out to make a change we think we can't do it. Today, with the help of my loving husband and supportive daughter, I proved to myself that I can. I can do this. I can do the Turkey Tri next year. Why? Because "Tomorrow Begins Today."
Today I asked Clint what was on the agenda for our Saturday together and he said that he thought we could go for a family bike ride. I agreed and after some preparation we set out with me leading the way. Some of you may not know my intense fear of falling but it paralyzes me to the point of anxiety attacks and stifling activity. We rode from our house to the River Jordan Trail and then up to Main Street in Lehi. Doesn't sound to bad right? Well I freaked out a few times and had to self-talk myself into avoiding a fall (or four). Clint also had to encourage me to go on several times. Two hours later when we got home I thought I was going to die. I started to cry hysterically in our driveway from pain and disbelief...not only had I done it but I didn't fall. It was an amazing feeling. The rest of the day my butt, thighs and knees have been killing me and apparently for good reason. Clint just looked up the mileage and what we thought would be a 5-mile ride total turned into 10.3 miles. I just looked at him in utter disbelief and then cried a little. I can't believe it. I just rode my bike 10.3 miles and lived. :) I am still dumbfounded by this and could ramble about it but won't.
All I am going to say is this. Most of the time when we set out to make a change we think we can't do it. Today, with the help of my loving husband and supportive daughter, I proved to myself that I can. I can do this. I can do the Turkey Tri next year. Why? Because "Tomorrow Begins Today."
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