Feeling Gratitude

So I just looked back at all the comments I've had on my blog and realized what an awesome group of people I'm surrounded by. I was pleasantly surprised by those that wrote encouraging thoughts and wanted to express my gratitude to each of you. This has truly been a struggle but knowing that I have awesome friends and family around me (both locally, nationally & internationally) makes it a little more do-able. I appreciate your words of adivce, cheerful comments, suggestions and offering of support. It is really an unexpected perk to blogging, not something that I thought I would ever do on a regular basis.

Today was another low calorie day. :( It's like once I make my mind to be very careful about food intake I get paranoid. I'm having a hard time finding balance. At the beginning of this year it wasn't this hard to find balance...of course I was only teaching one night class. Now I have two night classes and a block class. Besides that Gweny is much more mobile and demands more of my attention. I really need to get a handle on this before it backfires and I end up with other problems. Hopefully I can put some order back into my life this weekend...I just need to make it until then.

Not enough calories really bites!

Today was kind of depressing. I had two bags of clothes that should have been going to DI but I had to bring them back in the house because I don't have very many clothes that fit me. I've gained too much weight. That was a sad moment as I brought them back...I guess at least now I'll have something to wear. Another thing that happened was I actually started watching what I eat again and I am starving! I don't think I had enough calories and so I guess I'm paying for it now. I need to plan out my meals & snacks better so that this doesn't happen again. I haven't started to exercise yet, I'm just trying to make baby steps. I don't feel like I have nearly enough hours in my day to do all the things I need to. Along with trying to make dietary changes I'm also trying desperately to organize my life. Hopefully as this happens life will get a bit more manageable.

So, the first real day of changing my diet...and it went okay. I definitely have room for improvement but it's a start.

Getting motivated

So, saying that you are going to make a healthy change is one thing...actually doing it is completely different! Life was crazy today and so I didn't get anything done as far as motivation and exercise and stuff. I did, however, buy the fixin's for a delicious light ceasar salad (my favorite) and bought some new workout clothes. That was a step in the right direction. My cute husband also said that a friend of ours wants to run in the Running with Angels 5k in May...I had the same goal but hadn't told him. She gets home about the same time I do so this could be a match made in exercise heaven! She has done every 5k with me so far (3) and so this is a perfect transition. I just don't want to let her or myself down.

Last night just before falling asleep I was talking to Clint about my blog and how scared I am. I asked him to be my coach and he accepted. I can't think of anyone better to crack that whip. Now with Tiffany beside me and Clint backing us up I know that the Running with Angels and ultimately the Turkey Tri (November) are attainable. If anyone else out there wants to get in on this crazy idea please let me know. I can use all the support I can get.

So my motivation? Not dying. Seriously.