Thanksgiving weekend was great but I didn't exercise. I have my reasons. :) Tomorrow morning is my Lasik consultation and so I'm not going to exercise in the morning. It's interesting to me the different setbacks we encounter on our roads to success. I'm not just talking about weight management but career and personal goals too. Sometimes the smallest thing can change our own history for better OR worst. The people around us have such a huge impact on us, especially our parents. Even when we think that we are all grown up and don't need or want their approval something happens to make us realize that we do. Mine happened today on my way to work.
I called one of my parents (who will remain anonymous) to find out about some medical history I need for tomorrow. We spoke briefly about it then this parent proceeded to add unwanted input. "Cindy, the one you need to worry about the most is your heart because you so large." Thanks Captain Obvious. Way to throw cold water on my enthusiasm. That one comment ruined my day. It was like all the other good things I have going for me don't even matter, it's this one area that I struggle with just keeps getting thrown in my face. I realized today that no matter how hard I try I will never be quite good enough and this parent doesn't even realize it. That's the saddest part, it's one thing to be cruel and realize it but it's a completely different ballgame when that person has no clue how hurtful they are.
Luckily for me I have an amazing husband, three other very supportive parents, amazing friends and extended family. If I didn't have this support group my goals would seem dull and lifeless. Fortunately they help me maintain my focus and remind me that I'm a pretty neat person. I realize that I have things that are hard for me to accomplish but eventually I'll get there. Life is hard, I get that. I accept that reality. I just wish that weren't my reality. That's all.
So as Clint would say, "Tomorrow Begins Today" and tomorrow is a new beginning. Here is one more step on my road to success...
3 comments:
Ahhhhh....family strikes again. Believe me....I have one too! My sister and I have come to the sad realization, yet again, that at our age we have to not only 'let go' of many folks in our biological lineage that continue to cause us dissapointment and pain but actively 'peel them off'! We are fortunate to have 'family of choice' at this stage of life - surrounding ourselves with people that will buoy us up and encourage us when we need it most. Take the negative things said to you and case them aside knowing that many of us around are rooting for you every step of the way - double hugs today!!!
How roood!! My mom has always done that kind of stuff and totally oblivious. Sorry. And if it matters I think your a lot more than a pretty neat person. You're 'super great and getting better'.
love ya
xoxoxo
I'm sorry to hear that about your 'parent.' I feel that pain. I grew up with that for years. At least once a day was something about my weight. Probably why I went into what I did. Haha! Anyway, something I learned was to just ignore it. Focus on all the things you love about yourself and not to worry about what anyone says about you. You should have said 'why don't you worry about you and I'll worry about me.' Next time say that. :) Don't let it get ya down. You really are a wonderful person!
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